The first question in the “Flat Book” (or The Narcotics Anonymous Step Working Guide) is, “What does the disease of addiction mean to me?”
For me the inescapable word “loss” comes to mind. When I think of the disease of addiction I think of loss. The loss of self, the loss of my family, the loss of my job, the laws of my life.
More than the thought of addiction being a disease, I think of it as a state of being. Being lost.